WEBVTT 00:01:56.155 --> 00:01:59.617 I made you some tea. You want some breakfast? 00:02:26.469 --> 00:02:28.270 What is it? 00:02:29.189 --> 00:02:30.990 Nothing. 00:02:39.590 --> 00:02:41.389 What? 00:02:42.814 --> 00:02:44.615 Nothing. 00:02:49.694 --> 00:02:51.495 I'll be right back. 00:06:16.800 --> 00:06:18.600 Wait. 00:06:19.759 --> 00:06:21.682 I have something for you. 00:06:52.620 --> 00:07:01.009 Eros, go. Eros, Greek. Love manifested in the blind full of organs. Same as? 00:07:01.058 --> 00:07:08.165 Comma, Hindu. Same as desire, the smart signal of the life wish. 00:07:10.460 --> 00:07:12.259 The life wish is? 00:07:14.779 --> 00:07:20.088 Same as the death wish. There is no life wish without the death wish. 00:07:20.620 --> 00:07:22.420 How? 00:07:27.235 --> 00:07:29.035 When I was a boy, 00:07:29.474 --> 00:07:31.783 much younger than you are now, 00:07:32.435 --> 00:07:39.079 we lived on a farm. We had everything. Chickens, bulls, 00:07:39.720 --> 00:07:42.199 sheep, cattle. Every 00:07:43.399 --> 00:07:45.399 spring, so much birth. 00:07:52.675 --> 00:07:59.016 I remember my teacher from those years. With every new birth, I would race in. 00:07:59.066 --> 00:08:05.572 Teacher. Teacher, I'd say. There's a new hatchling, a kid. She would light up at 00:08:05.622 --> 00:08:11.882 those excitements, but she was a towns woman. She was severed from the way of 00:08:11.931 --> 00:08:18.355 life. When we are severed, we forget. We think we must grow, grow, grow with no 00:08:18.405 --> 00:08:21.764 loss or worse, hold on tightly, preserve. 00:08:23.045 --> 00:08:28.404 Where there is much creation, there's necessarily much destruction. 00:08:29.925 --> 00:08:35.155 Where does creation come from but that? We do not beat the bookends. 00:08:36.100 --> 00:08:41.849 Life succeeds at the expense of life. So when I ran to her with the news of 00:08:41.898 --> 00:08:47.802 what was lost, she hardened to me. She judged those early debts. The pigs one 00:08:47.851 --> 00:08:53.986 year in the flood, the hens to the fox, the cattle to the butcher. Where did she 00:08:54.037 --> 00:08:59.630 know them? Her dog was neutered and acquired in store. Modernity wants to 00:08:59.681 --> 00:09:04.320 package the parts and keep us safe. Separation is dangerous. 00:09:07.759 --> 00:09:14.691 The psyche spins and spins looking for grounding. Arrows, comma, desire, these 00:09:14.740 --> 00:09:21.672 are the affirmation of the life wish. The life wish is a radical acceptance of 00:09:21.721 --> 00:09:28.652 life in which death does not extricate. The life wish says, yes, this. Yes, in 00:09:28.702 --> 00:09:35.365 spite of it. Yes, to all of it. To the whole creation of our life and every 00:09:35.414 --> 00:09:40.695 death and destruction we cross until we meet our final Yes. 00:09:45.095 --> 00:09:52.246 Yes to this moment. We die to who we were to be born again. So you have to ask 00:09:52.296 --> 00:09:57.190 yourself at the first intended knocks of true desire. 00:09:57.830 --> 00:10:03.215 Will you accept that call radically of all of this intended suffering? 00:10:03.269 --> 00:10:09.753 Or will you stay stuck, separate, refusing your part in the very drama that 00:10:09.802 --> 00:10:11.602 you've come to play. 00:10:24.850 --> 00:10:29.312 It's time to get going. You'll be late for your next tour. 00:10:38.894 --> 00:10:40.695 Wait. 00:19:36.419 --> 00:19:41.460 Oh, right there. Oh, There it goes. 00:19:47.059 --> 00:19:51.140 Right there. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. 00:20:55.875 --> 00:20:58.355 Yes. Yes. Yes, please. 00:21:01.369 --> 00:21:03.529 Fuck. It's so deep. 00:22:38.549 --> 00:22:40.349 I'm grizzy on you. 00:23:09.595 --> 00:23:11.394 Oh, yes, right there. 00:23:29.950 --> 00:23:32.750 Yes. Yes. Oh, fuck. 00:23:48.444 --> 00:23:50.367 Oh, it's so fucking good. 00:32:50.619 --> 00:32:52.420 Fuck. 00:32:57.660 --> 00:32:59.460 Oh, it's so deep. 00:33:01.474 --> 00:33:03.275 Fucking love it. 00:34:42.900 --> 00:34:44.530 Every 00:34:44.579 --> 00:34:46.380 Oh, inch.